Don’t act like you’ve never bit off a piece of fruit roll up and pretended that you’re a lizard. You’re not better than that. No one is better than that.
I couldn’t even tell you how this all began
Here I am, getting into a mess with an old friend.
I know that you’re hurting, I’ve came to help you.
But what I didn’t tell you is that I, too, need rescued.
Seeking refuge in the aftermath of unrequited love,
Knowing that you’re safe and that we both need someone.
I know you’re not “the one” but you’ll do just fine for the part.
I give you my shoulder in return for tools to fix my heart.
Sitting in the dark, watching planes land,
My feet up on the dashboard, a Yuengling in my hand.
I know you want a little more of me, but I just want a little less of everything.
I know how crazy I can be, but somehow you enjoy my idiosyncrasies
And it’s not that I don’t like you, you’re perfect on paper.
And because of that I keep trying, thinking maybe it’ll grow into something greater.
Maybe later I’ll see you as that guy,
The wide eyed lover that changed my life.
That’d be nice, but in reality I’m just killing time.
And you’re just filling a void, and feeding your ego, and I get it, and it’s fine.
You’ll pick me up, we’ll both smile, even share a kiss.
You think I’m just shy when I shift in my seat as you try to touch my hip.
City Lights as far as the eye can see.
I’m mentally checked out while you’re mentally undressing me.
You admire my perceived sensibility
and I admire your admiration for me.
Shiny things, bottles of wine, gifts and trips.
I should feel bad but at least we’re no longer the poster kids for loneliness.
I suppose a little bit of acting never hurt anybody.
I’m going for the Oscar and you just want to be my date to the after party.
This little, I don’t know what you call it, it has a shelf life.
There’s no real passion, no, we’re just both nice.
Call if you want, I’m free on Thursday nights
But, no, I’ll never be your wife.
This isn’t right
This isn’t right
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